Thursday, 4 January 2018

A mundane start to 2018

I was hoping that my first post of the year would be filled with excitement and positivity, but I really haven't been feeling the buzz about the New Year...

As per usual, I put too much pressure on myself to kick start a new lifestyle on January 1st. I seem to think that as soon as I finish the countdown on New Year's Eve, a magic spell will be cast upon me and I will be a new person! Of course, this is impossible in the literal sense, but the idea of change isn't ridiculous! 

I had a lovely NYE! I spent the evening eating, drinking and playing games with my dad, boyfriend, best friend, sister and her partner. I didn't want to go out so staying in and having a laugh with those closest to me was perfect. 

The lead up to the end of the year is always a weird time for me. I reflect on the year I've had and often become a lot more critical of the choices I've made. I think about all the ways I can make the coming year better and what I can do to make myself happy. This is where my mind goes out of control, goes into overdrive and I mentally put too much on my own shoulders by imagining too many things that I could never achieve all together. 

So, when it came to New Year's Day, and I hadn't achieved anything straight away, I was disappointed in myself. I was instantly a failure because I hadn't posted a blog, planned my posts for the year and gone to the gym and lost 3 stone! That's it! The year is going to be another shit one, isn't it!? NO!

I need to remind myself to calm the eff down! I need to recognise the small victories! I've set myself my first goal of 2018: to get to the gym at least once this week. It may seem like nothing to those who are going 3-5 times a week, but for someone suffering from Anxiety, it's huge. I used to go to the gym with my brother but he's not going to be joining again just yet, so I will be going by myself during the day. As much as I'm raring to get going and get fit, the initial making my way to the gym and walking in by myself is SO daunting! Just need to get it over with. Even if I manage to go once this week, I can then make it twice next week, then three times etc! 

That's going to be my main thing this year, make myself some small, manageable goals and celebrate my small victories!! 

I hope you all had a great New Year's and are ready to smash 2018! What are some of your goals for the year? Let me know in the comments or on my Twitter here!

Thanks for reading!


Laura
xo

4 comments:

  1. Happy new year Laura! Hope it brings you much happiness x

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    1. Thank you, you too! Hope your year is a positive and successful one! :) xo

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  2. Happy New Year lovely!! I love how honest you have been in this blog post. I really hope your anxiety keeps at bay for you, it's a horrid thing to deal with so I am sending you so much love. 💜✨

    With love, Alisha Valerie. x
    www.alishavalerie.com | www.twitter.com/alishavalerie

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  3. You too!! Thank you, I love being able to share my thoughts on here and being able to be honest with myself! Sending you love and positive vibes for 2018!! xo

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